Post by Vlade Divac on Jul 9, 2016 23:49:29 GMT
There are at least 5 GMs, maybe more, that think I am crazy. Every time I try to rejoin the league they say something that sets me off. The latest GM was JR but I am not really mad him nor anyone else because you simply do not understand the situation.
Why does it set me off? It's because I went a year through the hellish experience anyone could ever imagine while trying to maintain adult responsibilities. Honestly, I hoped, prayed, and wished I had cancer because it consumed every facet of my life. I can say that all I want but I do not think people will understand until I release the details to the entire league. While it scares me to post this on a public forum, I am going to leave for exactly a month and then delete it. Although I am not looking for sympathy, here is what happened to me:
It's a really really long story but here is the gist of it: During the middle of October 2014, I felt something start burning in my pelvis. Looking back, I think my bladder inflamed at this point in time. Whatever the case, this injury prevented me from being able to wear tight clothes or accessories such as a belt. I could still, however, wear dress pants without a belt. Exercise seemed to make this problem worse, but I tried to stay active for my general health, for better or worse, much as possible. Furthermore, my urine track and sexual functions virtually did not work. I have gone back and forth on this, but my ability to poop did not work as well as before but still worked in comparison with my other problems. All of these problems combined made my pelvic region feel super tight which basically shut that part of my body off for a week or two. As a result, I basically laid in bed and iced my back, pelvic area around my bladder, and area closest to my prostate (called a gooch in slang terms) unless school or work require me to get up from October 2014 to January 2015.
While it got a little better, I basically walked around like this for about a year because the doctors though I had prostatitis. My pain from wearing pants grew worse after doing an internship and the injury forced me to quit early. In September of 2015, I went to the Mayo Clinic in Scottsdale, Arizona and they told me I have Bladder Neck Obstruction. Basically, a normal person's bladder muscles work together but mine, for whatever reason unknown to doctor's, work against each other or something is obstructing my ability to pee. This is rare in men my age and while the doctors could perform surgery on me, they seem hesitant to do it on me because it will make me infertile because I will be unable to ejaculate correctly (for my details on this, google "Retrograde Ejaculation.") Since then, I have done shots in my pelvic floor, pelvic floor therapy, repaired a hernia, went to a chiropractor, and prayed and it seems to be getting better but I am not 100% yet. Recently, I thought was getting better but experienced a terrible set back which got me down but I will keep on trucking. At this point, I am pretty good as long as I do not wear pants but that makes it hard to work.
Again, I am not asking for sympathy but could you please just give me one more chance? I will send anyone proof if they doubt me.
Why does it set me off? It's because I went a year through the hellish experience anyone could ever imagine while trying to maintain adult responsibilities. Honestly, I hoped, prayed, and wished I had cancer because it consumed every facet of my life. I can say that all I want but I do not think people will understand until I release the details to the entire league. While it scares me to post this on a public forum, I am going to leave for exactly a month and then delete it. Although I am not looking for sympathy, here is what happened to me:
It's a really really long story but here is the gist of it: During the middle of October 2014, I felt something start burning in my pelvis. Looking back, I think my bladder inflamed at this point in time. Whatever the case, this injury prevented me from being able to wear tight clothes or accessories such as a belt. I could still, however, wear dress pants without a belt. Exercise seemed to make this problem worse, but I tried to stay active for my general health, for better or worse, much as possible. Furthermore, my urine track and sexual functions virtually did not work. I have gone back and forth on this, but my ability to poop did not work as well as before but still worked in comparison with my other problems. All of these problems combined made my pelvic region feel super tight which basically shut that part of my body off for a week or two. As a result, I basically laid in bed and iced my back, pelvic area around my bladder, and area closest to my prostate (called a gooch in slang terms) unless school or work require me to get up from October 2014 to January 2015.
While it got a little better, I basically walked around like this for about a year because the doctors though I had prostatitis. My pain from wearing pants grew worse after doing an internship and the injury forced me to quit early. In September of 2015, I went to the Mayo Clinic in Scottsdale, Arizona and they told me I have Bladder Neck Obstruction. Basically, a normal person's bladder muscles work together but mine, for whatever reason unknown to doctor's, work against each other or something is obstructing my ability to pee. This is rare in men my age and while the doctors could perform surgery on me, they seem hesitant to do it on me because it will make me infertile because I will be unable to ejaculate correctly (for my details on this, google "Retrograde Ejaculation.") Since then, I have done shots in my pelvic floor, pelvic floor therapy, repaired a hernia, went to a chiropractor, and prayed and it seems to be getting better but I am not 100% yet. Recently, I thought was getting better but experienced a terrible set back which got me down but I will keep on trucking. At this point, I am pretty good as long as I do not wear pants but that makes it hard to work.
Again, I am not asking for sympathy but could you please just give me one more chance? I will send anyone proof if they doubt me.